Birth Story—No Pain, No Baby!

It was 12:30 in the afternoon on July 29th.

Dear God! What is this pain?!

A contraction, missy. You’re having a contraction.

Sweet mother of all that is holy, that hurts!

Unfortunately, those “painful” contractions would get worse...and more frequent...and more debilitating...just, more everything. At this point, I’d been having Braxton Hicks contractions for weeks; sadly, when you’re prego, sitting around in your third trimester, praying to God you spontaneously go into labor, reading mommy-blogs describing the excruciating thrall of labor pain, nothing truly prepares you for the real thing.

Before I progress any further in my story, I probably should point out that I was a huge, week late, very angry pregnant lady, begging for reprieve for my swollen feet, aching pelvis, and stretched-to-the-max tummy. I had already scheduled an induction, should baby B protest coming to the outside world any longer, and I was sleeping with ten pillows just to keep my enormous belly somewhat comfortable. I was SO done being pregnant, and I was desperate to hold my son.

Oddly enough, at 4:30 a.m. the next day my contractions were five minutes apart, and we were off to the hospital.

Early labor...in all its huge, sweaty glory. 

Once we got there, it was a seamless transition into triage. I peed in another cup, stepped on another scale (*cringe*), and waited in another small room to be examined. A nurse came in, hooked my belly up to a heart monitor and contraction measuring machine, and asked us to wait for the doctor. Not unusual for my pregnancy over the last few weeks, the doctor said that my blood pressure was a little high and that she wanted to run tests to make sure I hadn’t developed pre-eclampsia (something I had been tested for just the previous week at my OBGyn’s office).

As I sat with my husband in the small triage room, we talked, joked, and took pictures in between contractions. Everything seemed normal—well, if you call insurmountable pain “normal”—just like I had seen and read about over the past nine months. That was until I had, what I affectionately refer to as, the mammoth contraction. This contraction was the longest, most pain-inflicting beast I had encountered up until this point. It made my stomach tighten to the point where I not only looked like I was going to pop but felt like it, too. As I squeezed my husband’s hand to the point of fracture, I heard some distressed fluttering of the nurses out in the hall.

That poor mom, I thought. Here I am complaining about my small contractions when there is someone else in real distress out there.

Then the fluttering came closer to my door. Then the fluttering was in my room. Then time started moving very fast.

Three nurses swarmed my bedside. One was strapping an oxygen mask to my face, telling me to take deep breaths over and over. One was hooking IV’s up to the back of my hand, quickly connecting several bags of fluids to various tubes. One was desperately moving the heart rate monitor on my belly back and forth, obviously searching for something.

“What’s going on?” I said—panicked.

“Your baby didn’t like that last contraction" one of the nurses hurriedly said.

“Is he ok?”

“We’re going to do everything we can to keep your baby safe.”

As comforting as she was meaning to sound, there was absolutely nothing that would have calmed my aching heart at that point. My baby was in distress. There was no calm.

The next several minutes of history sort of blur together in my mind. At one point, a doctor came in and told me she was going to break my water. The nurse kept calling OR 3 to book my emergency C-section. My husband was in and out of the room, calling my parents, trying to relay what little information they were giving us. As I sat there, surrounded by wires, tubes, ultrasound machines, and nurses, I prayed. Harder and more passionately than I have ever prayed before. And as strange as it sounds, amidst the crazy train that was my triage room, I felt peace. And baby B’s heart rate slowly began to creep up.

Later, we would find out that baby B’s heart rate had dropped below safe levels for six minutes, which was described to us as "very scary" and often ending in emergency C-sections. The nurses had just finished checking my blood work, which was negative for pre-eclampsia, and were about to discharge me to labor at home when baby B’s heart rate dipped.

After his heart rate was in the “safe zone” for ten minutes, they canceled the emergency C-section and admitted me to labor and delivery. We all joked that baby B knew we were going to get sent home, and he just was insistent on being born that day—stubborn like mom right from the beginning.

Anxious daddy, ready to meet his little man! 

From that point on, it was pretty smooth sailing. My whole family got comfy in our room, I got some popsicles to munch on (seeing as I hadn’t eaten since dinner the previous day...and for a huge prego, that was just far, far too long), and we all played “Head’s-Up”—a very entertaining way to take the edge off of contractions pre-epidural.

Even though the nurses had assured me that we were “out of the woods” with baby B’s heart rate, I remained a paranoid mom for my entire labor. I enlisted every family member in the room to watch the monitor next to my bed, ensuring baby B was ok and my contractions weren’t putting him in distress. I didn’t know it then, but that was the beginning of the mommy worry I would carry around with me forever; it was the constricting fear that came with removing baby B from my belly. The pain that would come from watching my heart walk around outside my body.

At 4 centimeters they started pitocin, worried that baby B’s heart rate would take another dip if we didn’t speed up my labor. Out of fear of the pain getting any worse, I opted for an epidural, which was not nearly as painful as I had played it up in my mind to be.  

At 6 centimeters I took a nap, but only after making every member of my family swear that their eyes would be glued to baby B’s monitor. I hadn’t gotten any sleep that night, as I spent most of the previous day and night timing my contractions.

At 9 centimeters, I was up, talking, and happily eating another popsicle. The nurse said it would probably be another two hours before I was anywhere near ready to start pushing, and even then it might be awhile before I would see my baby. So, we all settled in for the long haul. That was at 4 p.m.

About ten minutes later, I felt this urge to push. I don’t know how to describe it other than this knowledge that my body was ready. I couldn’t feel anything from the waist down, so it wasn’t a physical urge, just something I “felt.” I called the nurse, who insisted that I wasn’t ready yet, but came to check all the same.

She promptly popped into the room, gloved up, insisted that I would still be another few hours, and checked…

“Oh my gosh! His head is right here. Ok, give me one good push, hun.”

Just like I had seen in all the movies, I beared down and gave it everything I had.

In the next few minutes they put my feet in the very comfortable, discreet stirrups (ha!), called and clothed the doctor for delivery, and prepped me for skin-to-skin. Twelve minutes and a whopping four pushes later, Bradley Eric was born, 7 lbs 10 oz, 20 ¼ inches of pure perfection.

Just like nothing really prepares you for labor, nothing really prepares you for holding your baby for the first time. For someone that prides herself on having quite the way with words, there were and are no words to describe it. I mean, how do you describe a miracle?